Day 24

My pops left tonight to go to Kentucky. He'll be staying until Memorial Day. He goes every year to put flowers on his parents' graves. So it's just my sister, my gran and I here for the weekend, which will be nice and horrific all at once. Yay.

Tonight I had carrots and hummus and corn on the cob for dinner. It was all really nice. I love freshly shucked corn.

I'm not going so well with things right now. Everything is just crushing down on me all at once and I can't seem to breathe. I feel like I'm drowning. I just don't know what to do anymore, but I have no choice but to keep living this way for now.

Day 23

I didn't end up eating dinner tonight, I feel sick and not up to eating. I've just been playing LEGO Harry Potter all day. I didn't have a nap today though, which is probably good but now I'm freaking exhausted. Probably sleep way too early and wake up and be up all night. :|

Day 22

Today wasn't so bad. It rained so it was cooler out which was really nice. I hate all this heat we've had. D:

For dinner I had mini eggrolls with sweet and sour. It's one of my favourite things to eat ever. I could live on those. Probably wouldn't live that long, but that would be alright.

I'm spending the night playing LEGO Harry Potter. Fun times!

Day 21

I am soooo tired. I've hardly been able to keep my eyes open today. It's terrible. It could be because of the pill increase, who knows.

For dinner I had pierogies, eggplant, carrots and tomatoes. It was all really good except for the eggplant. I've never had it before and wasn't really a fan of how I cooked it. It was way too rich. Maybe next time I'll just sautée it with some salt and see how that goes.

I had an alright day with my eating. No binges so I'm pleased about that. I went out for a drive earlier which was really nice to just drive with nowhere to be. I wish I could do that more often.

Day 20

Today was another long day. Felt pretty terrible, but I talked to my doctor and he's increasing one of my pills so hopefully I'll notice a change with that.

For dinner I had sautéed veggies, cottage cheese and sausages.

It was all really nice. I'm doing OK with my new eating schedule. Not fantastic, but it could definitely be worse. I'm relatively pleased with it I suppose.

Day 19

Today was long. I thought it was never going to end. I've been having such bad days that I just am waiting for night to come so I can sleep. I hate sleep too, though. Hopefully this is just temporary.

For dinner I just had a chicken salad sammich. It was quite tasty. I don't think I've made this since I quit eating meat, but it's something I'll definitely make again. Litelife makes amazing chicken strips.

I still have about 3 hours before I can sleep. I dunno what to do in the meantime. I feel like screaming and smashing things. I'll probably just spend it on reddit though I suppose. I hope it's not as hot tomorrow.

Day 18

We made pizzas tonight for dinner! They were pretty mediocre, but still, pizza. Pizza is good.

I didn't do much today. Showered and painted my nails. Those... those are my big accomplishments for the day. The rest of the day was spent in bed. I still feel like balls. But I've started my pills again because I feel like I was in a really bad state of mind when I quit them and I shouldn't have done that. I need to be on them right now. So we'll see how this goes again.